The flesh or the Spirit?

Isn’t it hard when you feel you’re being pulled in every direction all at once? 

Wouldn’t it be easier if God just told us exactly what He wants us to do, without us having to ask to be led? 

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed because I’m trying to understand the path that God wants me to take. Sometimes it’s clear, and sometimes, not so much. Sometimes I can say in full confidence that I know exactly what I am doing, and sometimes I feel stuck and unsure, intimidated and insecure, confused and doubtful, stressed and anxious. 

I think it is normal to feel this way sometimes. We are only human. We are not perfect.

At times, I wonder why some doors keep popping open, even after I’ve closed them. I wonder if it’s God, or if it’s the enemy tempting me. Then I go back to my Father’s Word, and I’m reminded that, “God is not a God of confusion but of peace…” (1 Corinthians 14:33)
His Word also reminds me that He calls us to, “Think over what I say, for the Lord will give you understanding in everything.” (2 Timothy2:7)

“Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.” – 1 Peter 5:8

“I am your servant; give me understanding, that I may know your testimonies!” – Psalm 119:125

These verses give me great peace whenever I’m tempted to give it all up and go for the desires of my heart, without meditating on it beforehand. I have to be honest. Lately, this man I have tried saying goodbye to many times, keeps coming back. I have wondered if it’s God’s way of telling me that he might be the one. Then I’m reminded that although my flesh (my heart) tells me that he might be the one, my Spirit remains doubtful. I ask myself, “Is he the type of man you’ve prayed for all your life?” “Does he love Jesus Christ above all else, and love you second?” “Would he be a great leader in our walk in Christ once married?” “Does he respect your wants and needs, and does he try his best to support you?” “Does he challenge and encourage you to grow in Faith?” 

“The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick; who can understand it?” – Jeremiah 17:9

The answer to all of those questions is the same… A big, fat, NO. So there you have it. I have made up my mind about him by meditating on the Word and putting the Lord first. Like He promises, “But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.” (Matthew 6:33) 

He is so FAITHFUL. He will always be there for His children. 
So if you are feeling confused about something today, I encourage you to spend some time in the Word. Anxiety and worries are not part of His plan for your life. If you have a hard time feeling at peace when making a decision, it could mean that He’s trying to talk to you and show you the right way. Pray, meditate, listen, wait patiently. He will guide you through. And then, you’ll just know.

Trust Him. He’s got your back 🙂

In Christ,

Nessa